elainmir
March 15th, 2005, 10:50pm
Today I have been incredibly sad. My Aunt Vicky is an angel is keeping tabs on her sis My Aunt Jean who has lung cancer. I find out how things really go on Dr. visits ,etc. My aunt J keeps saying oh I'm fine or glossing things over. I found out from Aunt V that J's cancer is stage 3. I've prayed so hard ya'll. She just has to be ok.
Aunt V & Aunt J's mom, my grandmother who passed away on March 2nd was such an angel. You never know what people treasure the most. A few years back I wrote my grandmother a letter telling her thank you for all she'd done for me my whole life. For being who she was,etc. I poured my heart into it because I wanted her to know and understand what she meant to me. My Aunt V found the letter in my Nana's bible that she read every day. She took treasured things with her to the rest home as space is very limited there and my heart was lifted that it meant so much to her that she put it in her bible that she read daily. Then there was the afghan that I bought her eons ago that said something sweet about Grandmothers and had my name stitched in it. I have long since forgotten what it said or when I gave it to her. But I remembered it vaguely. She had taken that to the rest home with her as well. It was in a bag in the closet. She wanted it nearby Aunt V said but not out so it would be ruined. I am touched that small things like a letter could mean so much to her. I believe God works in ways we will never begin to understand. I went there 3 weeks ago with the intention of seeing Aunt J and encouraging her to fight this cancer. I got to see Nana for the last time. A week later I was back attending her funeral. Without Aunt J saying please come visit, I had no plans to go .....but I did go and am thankful for that precious time I was allowed with Nana. Last year I knew Aunt J's 50th bday was coming up and I said I NEED to do this party for her. Something drove me to do it. My grandmother was able to visit with 2 of her sisters that she hardly ever sees. These days I am connected to my family in ways you cannot imagine now. And my heart is on my sleeve more than it ever was before. I am sad today. I know things are one day at a time. But in my sadness I thought hey maybe I'd say if you have a letter to write to tell someone I love you, what they mean to you,etc. then dont put it off. Call more, talk more, love more. FORGIVE more. Sorry about blabbing on guys. Just letting go of some sadness tonight.
Aunt V & Aunt J's mom, my grandmother who passed away on March 2nd was such an angel. You never know what people treasure the most. A few years back I wrote my grandmother a letter telling her thank you for all she'd done for me my whole life. For being who she was,etc. I poured my heart into it because I wanted her to know and understand what she meant to me. My Aunt V found the letter in my Nana's bible that she read every day. She took treasured things with her to the rest home as space is very limited there and my heart was lifted that it meant so much to her that she put it in her bible that she read daily. Then there was the afghan that I bought her eons ago that said something sweet about Grandmothers and had my name stitched in it. I have long since forgotten what it said or when I gave it to her. But I remembered it vaguely. She had taken that to the rest home with her as well. It was in a bag in the closet. She wanted it nearby Aunt V said but not out so it would be ruined. I am touched that small things like a letter could mean so much to her. I believe God works in ways we will never begin to understand. I went there 3 weeks ago with the intention of seeing Aunt J and encouraging her to fight this cancer. I got to see Nana for the last time. A week later I was back attending her funeral. Without Aunt J saying please come visit, I had no plans to go .....but I did go and am thankful for that precious time I was allowed with Nana. Last year I knew Aunt J's 50th bday was coming up and I said I NEED to do this party for her. Something drove me to do it. My grandmother was able to visit with 2 of her sisters that she hardly ever sees. These days I am connected to my family in ways you cannot imagine now. And my heart is on my sleeve more than it ever was before. I am sad today. I know things are one day at a time. But in my sadness I thought hey maybe I'd say if you have a letter to write to tell someone I love you, what they mean to you,etc. then dont put it off. Call more, talk more, love more. FORGIVE more. Sorry about blabbing on guys. Just letting go of some sadness tonight.